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Name: Nelson
Country: United States
State: Virginia
Birthday: 5/4/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: football, weightlifting, shoes
Expertise: procrastinating like a fool, making sure schnoozeberries TASTE like schnoozeberries
Occupation: Student
Industry: Textiles
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Member Since:
10/1/2003
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| but i can't.
must fight through, must persevere.
it will be worth it in the end.
but hot damn, i need to breathe.
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| I want to catch my breath.
the problem is, i can't afford to lose time doing that.
when i went home for fall break, i slept for 11 hours 2 days in a row.
when i got back to school, i was happy to get 4 hours a night.
between VSA, my thesis/capstone, and job searching, there is very little time to hang out and enjoy my last year.
everyone told me it would be fun drunken night after fun drunken night, but i find myself awake past everyone else, just sitting in front of a computer and cranking out work. (and i dont think this is helping much)
i thought that i would care less by now, since im nearly done with it all. but truthfully, knowing the end is in sight and knowing what im working towards (graduation) makes me really believe that any given assignment i could fuck up on and not even graduate, which would be a huge disappointment to a lot of people who have invested in me.
i dont know, i feel like im already starting to step out of college slowly.
I feel like I've done all i can in college and that it's about time for me to reach out and reach the next level of my life and work hard and succeed there.
i dont feel in touch with some people here anymore, and that only adds to me reaching out from college.
a lot of people dont understand, nor do they seem to want to understand, the things i have seen and gone through to become the person i am today.
what happens because of this is that my actions are misinterpreted which only causes harm because my intentions were not passed on, that other intentions were put behind my actions.
it pains me to think that when i try to do the right thing, that people will criticize me for it.
i cant think clearly anymore, im only thinking about steel.
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| WOW!
one year since my last entry!
craziness.
anyhoo, the reason i decided to take a look at this:
while at work, my co-workers started talking about online dating, and that turned to myspace and we decided to look at their myspaces.
when it came to my turn, i said i didnt have one. they thought i was lying and then i explained i had a xanga (and what a xanga was).
and now, somehow i started talking to monica about xangas and i stalked to find hers.
and it made me want to post.
sooo...
my life...
uhm, 4th year, yay??
excited for kd this week.
i've been doing nothing but hardcore working the whole summer.
as much fun as i am having at work (i know, fun at work?) and as much as i am learning, i kinda wish that i didn't have to do it this soon. i see the people who have become workaholics and how letting work consume your life just plain sucks.
i'm still fairly young (at least my age says so. body, not so much), i need to go out and get all the crazies out of my system before entering the real real world.
i've told myself that i will not work during this winter, that i will go and enjoy myself.
heading into these internships, i thought i had it down: work this many years, get PE, then smooth sailing.
what about those years though? am i gonna bust my ass and not enjoy anything until it's too late?
i think the crazies have left me a bit between the winternship and the summer one, but i still feel the jitters.
so, as far as living life goes, i've learned that anyone's life can change at any moment. so i must do everything i can to enjoy it. continue to live life with no regrets, and face it with a smile =).
my entries are positive now! no more emo entries! but why am i only buying black shirts...
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| hello. it's been 2 months since the last entry. here's the short and simple of it:
chill, china, ball.
cville tomorrow. school starts up again. ho boy, life's moving faster than ever.
grown up life is soon to begin. i felt so weird saying my age is 20. no more teening around, it's surrious time.
when i went back to china, i realized that i haven't seen most of the people in 10 years.
it's scary to know that 10 years have gone by even though it felt like yesterday.
what a difference 10 years makes.
will i look back and be able to smile and laugh at myself 10 years from now?
i don't know what it is about china, but it makes me think about the fragile human life, and how even 90 years of life is extremely short.
i think it's because of us going back to my mom and dad's hometowns and pray to the alter of my grandpa and grandma's great grandparents. in other words, my great great great grandparents.
i could tell that they left a strong impression on my grandparents, and my great great grandparents left a strong impression on my parents.
these people completed their life cycle, and I'm closing in on 20% complete.
though these people didn't live forever, their legacies live on in others.
my parents picked up on things and qualities that they saw in their elders, learning from them and becoming better.
will i be able to do that?
long after I'm gone, will my children sit their grand kids down and share items and stories about me?
sigh, it's all so far away, but the only way for me to make sure that i can leave some good things behind is to always put my best foot forward and to be truthful to the person inside me.
P.S. here you go Long, so you got something to read today at work.
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| and that's the end to second year.
It was quite eery walking out of the apartment, leaving it just the same way that i came into it in august (with slight, permenant modifications...bye bye security deposit...).
another great year of growth and fun.
lots of lessons learned, lots of knowledge given and taken.
I'm only halfway there, but then I'm halfway there. (ooo-oh! living on a prayer! ...sorry...)
To the Class of 2007, thanks for the guidance, the beastly times, and may you have all that you hope and wish for.
Come back and visit! The incentive for visiting me is I live by bars.
now ramblings:
-heroes season finale was...bleh
-China in less than a month!
-Grad parties galore soon! (damn you VA Beach...)
-Real golf! I've been doing nothing but reading about it, now time and see that I can apply it.
-I think I want to start building models again. I forgot how fun it was.
-Time to hone in on those FIFA skillz. Must make my way up the ladder...
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